- I posted an item I sold on eBay, without a tracking number. The item hasn’t arrived at the destination, which means it’s probably been lost by Royal Mail, so I’ll have to refund over £100 which I already spent;
- I drunk alcohol;
- After 8 weeks clean, I took drugs;
- I invited a hot Brazilian guy to have sex with me;
- He came over and throughout the day he invited 5 guys! 5 strangers in my house.
- I invited one guy, someone I really like. We started having sex but the other Brazilian guy took over and finished it off;
- In total 7 guys/strangers wandered around my flat, my personal space;
- I missed work on Monday;
- and took more drugs.
- I didn’t read any of my books;
- I didn’t do the work I needed to do;
- I didn’t go to the gym;
- I didn’t eat;
- I didn’t sleep; and
- I missed 2 days of taking my tablets for depression.
Now I feel horrible, defeated, pathetic, a complete know which needs to be slapped very hard on the face. So this week I start again to head towards week 1, and hopefully I’ll manage until at least week 9.
Big hug to you all and sleep well.
Fernando, the fucking stupid cunt x